Let's face it, everyday is a fucking pain in the ass. You wanna know why? Uncertainties. Of things, time, people, and the like. It is a pain in the ass because you always have to fucking guess what will happen next. You always have to weigh both sides of a situation, and, when you've already chosen what to do, when you've already made up your mind, you are still not so sure if it will come out to be great -- to be okay, at the least. "I'm already sure of what I'm going to do with my life," "I know what to eat for lunch," "I'll be there at 10 am, pronto" but you know, at the back of your mind, there will always be that doubt, that voice, that feeling of holding back, "What if this wouldn't work out?" "Ohh, Sushi sounds so much better than Burritos" "Wait, I think I have to do something before 10 am!" You get what I mean?
And, I know for sure (this is the only thing I know that's constant in life, really. Next to "changes") that the answers of all these uncertainties, is the ability of a person to take risks. Yeah, we wouldn't know what will happen next. We do not have any fucking idea, do we? Yet, when we take risks, we would know. Sometimes though, it'll turn out to be a shipwreck of decisions and choices but hey, at least we tried.
Unfortunately, taking risks isn't still my forte. I still play safe in everything. And that is why everyday is a fucking pain in the ass for me.
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