I Want You

Disclaimer: Cheesiness at its peak. Wrote this almost 3 weeks ago

I want to tell you already how much I like you, but I value our friendship so much that the thought of it makes me scared as hell. But boy is it hard keeping what I feel inside and bottling it all up, you know? It's like a tug of war. One side's telling me to confess to you already so I won't be having a hard time anymore and we might be "something else". Something greater, something we're both wanting to have. You know what I mean. And, the other's telling me to keep it to myself because: 1) I might break our friendship 2) You might think I', taking advantage of our friendship, of the times we're together. (But trust me, I'm not. I just want to be with you cause it makes me a happy bee) 3) That you'll get annoyed 4) That you'll never talk to me ever again 5) The things between us will never be the same.

But you know what bugs me even more? That what if we can have both. Friendship and... you know what it is. Ahhhh, this is making me crazy!

I don't know, tho. You might end up knowing all about this with this note. I don't know how, but I hope you do so that it would be a lot easier for me... in a way, maybe. 

I like you. I have been liking you since senior year. Legit 2 years. Call me a player or whatever, but damn, who wouldn't like you, really? Yeah, you have so many issues but I really don't care. I mean, I do care but it doesn't matter. I just don't get it why you're insecure about yourself, you know. You're legit beautiful and amazing. 

And by the way, when you're feeling sad, I feel sad too. Just saying. 

I LIKE YOU BUT I LEGIT DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THIS. It's really hard when you like your friend. And when she's straight? Hardest.

Oh well. That's about it.

FIN...

P.S. Will I still have the guts to give you your favorite chewy candies later? Will I even see you? Will I even get to talk to you? Or will you even go to school? Gah, so many questions for you but I am too scared of what your answers might be.

P.P.S Hope you're sleeping already. >:D< Sweet dreams, *insertnamehere*. :) I lo... K, not gonna type that.

P.P.P.S You know what? You don't have to try to be drop dead gorgeous. Even if you're in your PJ's, I still find you rather beautiful. Flawlessly beautiful. Trust me.

P.P.P.P.S You're different from all of them and I do find you special. Hope you can feel it, though, *insertnamehere*. I really, really, really like you.