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Looking Back

I don't know what I should feel while reading all the entries in this blog. It's full of hatred and cheesiness. LOL. I hope one day, I could blog about how happy I am with my life and how contented I am.

It pays to wait.


On the side note, I pretty much had a great weekend with my friends and family. First part of my weekend consists of my friends. My friend had her birthday dinner in her house and boy, it had a lot of drama. Still, I had fun. Second part made it so much better since I spent it with the family. Great lunch, walked the dog, great dinner, great company.

Thank You so much. I know and You know that I'm very much in trouble at the moment but knowing You will never leave me and the people I love, I'm all good waiting for things to fall back into place.

Oh, I already started to blog about being happy! Yes, I like to state the obvious.
Night, world.

I wonder...

Life,
If you could just spare me a shit load of money, I'd buy a Canon EOS 600D.

Please.

Lots of love,
A.

Tonight, I pray

that I may find what I have been looking and longing for. That I may have the courage to take the risk to be able to do what I want to do. That my dreams will be bigger than I think it will be. That I will be brave enough to step out of my comfort zone. That I will not be afraid to lose, fail, and cry. That I may embrace the change no matter how hard it will be. That the disappointments I will be facing will help me grow. That I may not quit. That I will strive to finish the path You have in store for me no matter how rocky it could get. That at the end of every path, I can say, with all of my heart, nodding with pride, smiling with relief, tears of joy, 

"I did it."

Lord, 

Give me a sign. 

Bless me with courage.

Make me brave.

Help me change the world. 

I am claiming it -- that I will be someone great.

Amen.

What does this mean?

I thought I was over it, but then... :-/

At least we're okay now, though. Cheers!

December 24, 2011 2:18 AM

I should be sleeping by now but I'm still waiting for someone to tweet...

Been Thinking About You (two)

(two)? Why? Because, I've been thinking about two entities. Ha ha.

Person # 1
I don't know if I should talk to you already. Actually, I've been ready to, tho. But there are times when I think about the (our) past, the anger and pain comes back. You know what really happened. You know it was all your fault why we ended up like this. It just sucks that you've already told other people YOUR side which makes me the villain. I'm not saying that you're the villain in here, it's just that for me, everything became so unfair. Now they think I'm this asshole who put your name in her blog and said awful things about you. Question is, did you (they) even read the WHOLE thing? Clearly, no. You don't know my side, they don't either. So stop judging.

But... Yes, I do miss you. As a friend. Soooo I don't know what to do. Meh. Maybe I'll just go with the flow.

Person # 2
Hi, you're special. I like you.